It's been a bad week for working out and dieting. We started a big home improvement project on Saturday...or deck. We completely removed our old 8x8 deck, tore it apart, cut and bundled the wood, placed new footings for our new deck, framed it all and had it up on it's legs...and that was just on Saturday alone. Since then, Ben has been working diligently in the evenings to attempt to get it done. Between that, regular household chores, work and then G, something had to give. Unfortunatley, it was going to the gym. While Ben is outside working on the deck, G can't be out there, so I spend all of the daylight hours every evening chasing her around until bed time. Then I crash.
It's not meant as an excuse and I know I will be back into it soon as I am already feeling icky. I don't think I've gained, but the lack of physical exercise and activity has left me feeling somewhat lethargic. It does beg the question..."Why didn't I get into this habit sooner?" Obviously, my body and mind feel so much better when I'm active. So my goal is to go back to the gym on Saturday morning. The deck is almost competlely done (save for the staining and railings...but that will come later). And life can return to normal...whatever that is.
Later, ladies!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Size Small, How Do I Love Thee...But Why???
Disclaimer: I understand that the initial purpose of these weight loss/accountability blogs was just that, to track the progress (and sometimes lack thereof) of our weight loss and to hold one another accountable. So I understand if some of you do not appreciate me waxing philosophical every once in a while. However, I am discovering as I change my outside it is bringing a lot about myself to light, and I am doing just as much, if not more, changing on the inside. So...there :) If you don't care to hear my ramblings, my "weekly results" are at the bottom of this post.
I am not naturally a small girl. I was wearing a C-cup in the 8th grade and was born with hips, thighs and booty (thanks genetics!). I have to WORK IT, to see progress and then WORK IT to maintain what I accomplish. It can get tiring, and at times there is this little voice in my head that says "Maybe God meant for you to be a size 12+/large". Ok...I don't REALLY think God intended for anyone to be a particular size, and I KNOW God didn't intend for me to eat a whole bag of chips and drink a whole 2 liter of soda in a one hour sitting. Actually quite the opposite, God wants me to honor my body as a holy temple and to treat the temptation of overeating just as I would the temptation of other sins. In 1 Corinthians it states:
"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body,"
YAY! So my weight loss and desire/goal to wear smaller clothes and look good in them is sanctioned by God...right?
Wrong.
God created us for him...to be a vessel of worship in everything we say, do...and put in our bodies. My entire purpose of being is to worship him, solely. Not to wear a size small, fit into a size 6 jean or to look good doing it. Do I want these things? I can't lie, yes, I do. I long to pick up the smaller size when looking for a new top. Or to put on my jeans and my rear look great. I am after all working VERY hard to attain these things. Then God calls me back to his Word and reminds me of a very familiar verse:
Proverbs 31:30
Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain. But the woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised
So, how do I balance those two things? I want to honor God by keeping my body, His holy temple, clean and pure, and not fall prey to the temptation of laziness and gluttony. However, I don't want to cross over and dishonor Him by assuming any of my recent success has been my doing or to misplace my goal on what little letter or number is on the tag in my clothes. How???
Sorry ladies, I don't have an answer. That is, except to pray continuously. To continue to seek His will. And finally to attempt to worship Him in ALL I do, say...and yes, even eat :)
So, with that I pray:
God, help me to remember the reason I started this journey. First, to honor you. And second, to be a better mommy and wife to my family. Help me keep that in my sights when I become distracted by numbers on the scale, letters on my clothing tags and the number of calories I put in my face. I want to always strive to honor you with my whole being...and to worship you in everything I do.
Also, Lord, help me to remember that without your grace and without the strength you give me, I would not be able to accomplish any of this. I wouldn't have lost a single pound, if it weren't for you giving me the drive, will power and strength to take the first step. Well, if we break it down even more, I couldn't do this if you hadn't simply breathed life into me. For that, I praise you for making this and so many other things in my life possible.
Please give me the strength to continue on this journey, and help me to remember that without you...I'd be nothing.
In your amazing name,
Amen
So, how did I do this week???
Workouts have been great, and I feel so much stronger this week for some reason. I also feel that I look stronger, especially in my arms and upper body. I do have to go to the doctor to get my wrist checked out. I have what looks like a bone spur (self diagnosis). It is on the end of my arm where it means my hand and makes it very difficult to do any type of weight lifting and impossible to do my push-ups. I have found modified ways of working out my upper body, but I need to get to the doctor to get it checked out. It reminds me I am getting older :)
I haven't lost much, but I know full well these last 10 pounds or so will be the hardest to get off.
Weight 5/1/2009: 155
Total weight loss: 22 lbs
(Original weight goal: 147, Modified weight loss goal: 140 lbs)
So I'm getting there. I would love to hit my original goal by August of this year. I don't know if my modified goal is really realistic considering eventually we will want to have another kid. That may come first...who knows.
Hope you guys have a great weekend!
I am not naturally a small girl. I was wearing a C-cup in the 8th grade and was born with hips, thighs and booty (thanks genetics!). I have to WORK IT, to see progress and then WORK IT to maintain what I accomplish. It can get tiring, and at times there is this little voice in my head that says "Maybe God meant for you to be a size 12+/large". Ok...I don't REALLY think God intended for anyone to be a particular size, and I KNOW God didn't intend for me to eat a whole bag of chips and drink a whole 2 liter of soda in a one hour sitting. Actually quite the opposite, God wants me to honor my body as a holy temple and to treat the temptation of overeating just as I would the temptation of other sins. In 1 Corinthians it states:
"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body,"
YAY! So my weight loss and desire/goal to wear smaller clothes and look good in them is sanctioned by God...right?
Wrong.
God created us for him...to be a vessel of worship in everything we say, do...and put in our bodies. My entire purpose of being is to worship him, solely. Not to wear a size small, fit into a size 6 jean or to look good doing it. Do I want these things? I can't lie, yes, I do. I long to pick up the smaller size when looking for a new top. Or to put on my jeans and my rear look great. I am after all working VERY hard to attain these things. Then God calls me back to his Word and reminds me of a very familiar verse:
Proverbs 31:30
Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain. But the woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised
So, how do I balance those two things? I want to honor God by keeping my body, His holy temple, clean and pure, and not fall prey to the temptation of laziness and gluttony. However, I don't want to cross over and dishonor Him by assuming any of my recent success has been my doing or to misplace my goal on what little letter or number is on the tag in my clothes. How???
Sorry ladies, I don't have an answer. That is, except to pray continuously. To continue to seek His will. And finally to attempt to worship Him in ALL I do, say...and yes, even eat :)
So, with that I pray:
God, help me to remember the reason I started this journey. First, to honor you. And second, to be a better mommy and wife to my family. Help me keep that in my sights when I become distracted by numbers on the scale, letters on my clothing tags and the number of calories I put in my face. I want to always strive to honor you with my whole being...and to worship you in everything I do.
Also, Lord, help me to remember that without your grace and without the strength you give me, I would not be able to accomplish any of this. I wouldn't have lost a single pound, if it weren't for you giving me the drive, will power and strength to take the first step. Well, if we break it down even more, I couldn't do this if you hadn't simply breathed life into me. For that, I praise you for making this and so many other things in my life possible.
Please give me the strength to continue on this journey, and help me to remember that without you...I'd be nothing.
In your amazing name,
Amen
So, how did I do this week???
Workouts have been great, and I feel so much stronger this week for some reason. I also feel that I look stronger, especially in my arms and upper body. I do have to go to the doctor to get my wrist checked out. I have what looks like a bone spur (self diagnosis). It is on the end of my arm where it means my hand and makes it very difficult to do any type of weight lifting and impossible to do my push-ups. I have found modified ways of working out my upper body, but I need to get to the doctor to get it checked out. It reminds me I am getting older :)
I haven't lost much, but I know full well these last 10 pounds or so will be the hardest to get off.
Weight 5/1/2009: 155
Total weight loss: 22 lbs
(Original weight goal: 147, Modified weight loss goal: 140 lbs)
So I'm getting there. I would love to hit my original goal by August of this year. I don't know if my modified goal is really realistic considering eventually we will want to have another kid. That may come first...who knows.
Hope you guys have a great weekend!
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